Maybe it’s a problem of perception. It feels like all I ever do anymore is work and work out (I’ve been working with a personal trainer for the past couple of months, a new experience for me). But is that true? Taking a step back, I have done other things–a spare couple of days fishing, a concert–so why does it feel like I need to find more balance?
I think a big part of it is that I haven’t written anything new in a long time. I continue to go to my writers groups, one of which is online, and my submissions have been new stories, but I wrote those stories back in June and have just been revising them in the months since. My hours at work have increased, but just to thirty, so it’s not even like I’m working full time. It must be a perception then that I’m too busy to write. It’s probably that I need to do a better job of making use of the time that I have and to establish a routine.
Of course, this problem of feeling like I need to work on my work/life balance is nothing new. People have been writing, thinking, and talking about that forever. My own feelings are probably magnified by the fact that I just spent the past two and a half years where I had much more time to write and do other things. Sure, I always had a job during grad school, but my jobs were always part time and my true reason for being in Montana was to write. Things have shifted now and I’m still adjusting.
And I do like my job. Two months in and I’m still enjoying it. The thing is, as much as I like it, there are other things I enjoy doing much more. Fishing, reading, and writing all come to mind. Yes, I know that this is true for almost anyone, but it does temper things. I need to find the time to do the things I enjoy when I’m not working, to keep them as a priority. I don’t think I’m there yet.
In the meantime, I’ve been thinking about a story idea and how to execute it, which at least feels like I’m doing something related to writing. I’ve also been playing around with an idea for a longer piece, maybe a novella, and have considered attempting NaNoWriMo using it as my idea. That might be asking a lot, though. Regardless, I have taken a day off in November and will be spending three nights down at Valley View Hot Springs. I’ve been meaning to write a post about my trip there back in July, but now I think I’ll wait until after this trip to write about it. It’s a pretty different, special place and I plan on getting some writing done down there. Here’s hoping it helps me find a little balance.